It’s been pretty busy around here lately and I haven’t had time time (or energy tbh) to blog. Last week was hectic as I had a job interview that prompted a schedule change and some other things going on as well, such as getting another job interview on the docket for later this week.
Needless to say, it’s been a bit stressful and running has helped deal with some of it, at the very least.
So week 13-
Run 1: 3 miles
Normally, I run 4.5 on Monday, but lack of sleep and anxiety from the job interview had me push out a quick 3 miles when I got home.
Run 2: 4 miles
Another night with poor sleep left me with low energy for this run. That and my legs were aching from Pilates the evening before.
Run 3: 5 miles (making up the missing half from the day before)
Mostly, I was thinking about the massage I had booked for later that day!
Run 4: 10 miles (the long run of the week)- and the last double digit run until my birthday!
I could say a lot about this run. How I didn’t feel awake enough for it or a variety of other excuses, but the issue is, for me, is that when things get tough, I stop. I slow down to a slow walk and contemplate my existence. It’s tough. I get so worried about pushing myself that I end up doing the complete opposite. Running is a very mental thing for me, and it gets frustrating to no end to see people who have run for a fraction of the time I have having amazing times and I’m lucky I can keep above a 13 minute mile on a long run. It really gets me down. It’s not a reflection on them, it’s on me. I am just beyond irritated with myself at this point and I know I need to figure some things out, or accept I will never have the success I want.
And last but not least, my fundraiser is active!