I feel a little better today emotionally, but still not 100% with this cold. My sinuses are killing and I am off and on queasy and eh. No exercise b/c I am not sure I could do any without puking. Also head is killing. :
I hate the way I look. I hate, hate, hate it. I hate how I feel. My friend posted a picture from the walk yesterday and I, I cant even express in words how I feel about the picture. I am sitting here sobbing over it. I look horrid….and while the colour yellow makes me look ridic, still…. all the working out I have been doing….. and I look worse than I ever have, worse than I did at 225 pounds. I look as tall as I am wide and seriously….. If I had the energy and didn’t feel horrid and my foot didn’t kill I would go for a run right now. I hate looking and feeling like this. And while the societal ideal is practically impossible for most people, I know. I don’t want to look like Gisele or whatever. I want to be healthy. I want to be able to work out in a sports bra. I want to not feel so hideous that people will actually talk to to me in real life. I want to feel attractive and buy bras at VS and feel good about myself.
No workout today. I was ridiculously sore from the walk, which was odd. It was only 5 miles…… I went to the chiro and had a massage and I hope tomorrow I am feeling up to working out. I’m also still sick so….. *sigh*
Today was the Jimmy Fund walk. It ended up being a very nice, warm day here in Boston. There were tons of people walking and also cheering everyone on. As it was a busy day in the city with a Red Sox double header and another walk occurring, not to mention the normal traffic, it took about an hour and 20 mins to complete the walk. If I had been on my own it would have been faster, but I burned a fair amount of calories anyways.
5 Mile walk 🙂
Today was an off day for food and exercise. I didn’t sleep well, had to work, and feel like I am coming down w/ a cold. SO….. today was an off day to relax and chill and not worry about food or exercise.
Tomorrow I am doing a 5 mile walk for the Jimmy Fund.
I had my last personal training session today. It was good. I am still frustrated about the scale as I watch it go up every day. *sigh* I was going to go to spinning tonight but I was too tired and sore from this morning.
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