Ugh today was a crappy day. I feel like I’m getting that cold back so I took it easy and drank lots of water and tea and airborne.
My eating was kind of crap too. Meh. No gym either since I didn’t want to wear myself out and I was pretty sore from 2 classes yesterday. I hope I feel ok tomorrow. I want to try boxing
I overslept today and had a horrible headache this morning. My eating was off I feel like b/c I missed the morning LOL. I didn’t count cals today; I may count points instead . . . I haven’t decided yet
Today I went to yoga and then pilates reformer. Yoga was challenging enough that I felt like I got a workout. It was hard to be the biggest person in the class (again). It was hard to have to look at myself in the mirror. I wonder if the mirrors are designed to make me look horrible? I always sit in a position where I cannot really see myself in spinning, but in the yoga studio there was no choice; there were mirrored walls everywhere!
Pilates was ok, I was tired and cold by then so I had a hard time focusing, especially toward the end when my stomach started growling.
I went through most of today thinking it was Tuesday. Oops LOL. So when I went to spinning I expected an entirely different instructor LOL. Oh well it was a good class anyways. I burned 654 calories according to my HRM.
I feel a little better today emotionally, but still not 100% with this cold. My sinuses are killing and I am off and on queasy and eh. No exercise b/c I am not sure I could do any without puking. Also head is killing. :
I hate the way I look. I hate, hate, hate it. I hate how I feel. My friend posted a picture from the walk yesterday and I, I cant even express in words how I feel about the picture. I am sitting here sobbing over it. I look horrid….and while the colour yellow makes me look ridic, still…. all the working out I have been doing….. and I look worse than I ever have, worse than I did at 225 pounds. I look as tall as I am wide and seriously….. If I had the energy and didn’t feel horrid and my foot didn’t kill I would go for a run right now. I hate looking and feeling like this. And while the societal ideal is practically impossible for most people, I know. I don’t want to look like Gisele or whatever. I want to be healthy. I want to be able to work out in a sports bra. I want to not feel so hideous that people will actually talk to to me in real life. I want to feel attractive and buy bras at VS and feel good about myself.
No workout today. I was ridiculously sore from the walk, which was odd. It was only 5 miles…… I went to the chiro and had a massage and I hope tomorrow I am feeling up to working out. I’m also still sick so….. *sigh*